I’ve gotten quite a few notes from people checking in, to see if all is OK in our neck of the woods. The common thread was “you indicated you were having difficulties, then disappeared”. For that I must apologize. For the most part I came to a grinding halt with my online presence. The reasons have been many.
To start, on May 23rd, 2009 (Memorial Day weekend), I had gone back to taking Concerta for my ADHD. I had stopped taking the medication for one reason: cost. As I have mentioned, we have been cutting our costs at every possible decision, including my meds and the needed doctor visit to get them. After many months without them, I was convinced that the medication had helped me focus better and act less impulsively. As I still had contact with the doctor for the kids’ visits, he saw that I could use the medication and had resumed giving me the scripts for Concerta.
In the three or four months leading up to this moment, I had been spending over four hours a day, seven days a week, working on the ADHD Hunter’s presence online. As a result, my “day-job” work was suffering for the time. A tidal wave of pressure was building up behind me.
I was stuck square in the middle – not enough time to take the ADHD Hunter to its next step and, at its current level, the ADHD Hunter could not become my full-time commitment. For those of us with ADHD, not having a clear and positive path in front of us on a project can easily lead to “major roadblock” procrastination.
With the re-introduction of the meds, my focus on my “day-job” kicked into gear. Cleaning up outstanding work was creating some satisfaction in my day. But on the down-side, I felt like my creative energy had all but disappeared.
On the homefront, we have been facing substantial challenges ranging from difficulties with the school, in the kids’ last few days before summer break and in transitioning the kids into our plans for them for the summer. (More to come on this.)
I will try to resume writing in the coming weeks. I do not want to give up on the ADHD Hunter. In my heart, this work is much too important and there are too many people looking for someone to help them through the challenges of ADHD. I have been living through the challenges of ADHD and have been helping others around the world with their own ordeals. This vocation has such tremendous meaning to me that I am determined to find my way through to a solution. Until then, please forgive the sporadic updates, while I reason my way through to the other side of this adventure.
With tremendous gratitude to you all,
Chris
Sounds like you made some wise choices and good observations. The forums will be here for whenever you canpost
keep pressing on with all you have to do 
Thanks Chica. No doubt that the meds were a large part of those “wise choices and good decisions”. There still is a side of me that is concerned that they are masking over my inner muse though.
It’s good to see you writing again. I can only speak for myself, but I’m happy with any amount of writing you can do. I’m glad to hear that your work life is going better back on the meds.
I’m here to support you and will never give up on ADHD_ Hunter , Concerta did not work for my son but I hope that you find solace with it. Looking forward to reading more
hugs to you…and remember that Life its self is an every day challenge and my experience with ADHD makes it more of a challenge at times
Chris,
SO glad you’re with us again. It DOES sound like you’ve made some wise choices and good observations as T-Chica said. And we must go thru ’stuff’ in order to make those choices. I don’t know if I’d worry about the meds masking your inner muse though. From the sounds of it, and everything you’ve written to date that I’ve read, this muse will NOT be silenced. And that’s a good thing. That’s a Great thing! We all need balance in our lives, in different AREAS of our lives; and if the meds give you the balance to keep the ‘day-job’ up to speed, and ADHD_Hunter going as well, then don’t give them up. I know cost cutting is important, but so is the ability to function and focus to the best of your ability!
There is also a bi-polar person near and dear to me who’s Dr. said he was doing so well, she was going to cut him down – that lasted about as long as you lasted without yours. The consequences were ALMOST a bit over-the-top, but he recognized the signs, got himself back to his regular dose, THEN called his doc and told her he didn’t think cutting back was a great idea! WHEW! NEVER want to live around this person on no meds again-so that was a close one.
Remember-it’s just Life! Live it well!
Blessings,
Amy
Maybe your inner muse will gain clarity and focus too?